Contentment is the biggest wealth we can have but the hard part is, it doesn’t come on its own. We need to work on it. In other words, we need to work on ourselves. I truly believe, we deserve to be happy no matter how silly we have acted in our lives, how truly stupid we have been. We deserve to make peace with ourselves.
I am wondering what under really bad circumstances, one can do to make oneself live again? What is that one thing one should be doing to have oneself back again? It is clear, you are broken, you are exhausted, you have been tore apart, there is absolutely no reason for you to breathe. The worst part is you do not wish to make it any better. Is it to do anything with acceptance? Have you ever accepted it? Accepted in a way that you understand your fault in it. You are a part of what eventually has become ‘you’ what you are today.
Let’s be practical. I am not you. I cannot live your life just the way you can’t live mine. We are in different stages of life so we may not be able to relate to each other to the extent we wish to. We cannot be with each other as we live at different side of the town or may be continent. We cannot indulge in each other’s life on a daily basis. We may not become the best of the friends. We cannot come to each other every single day just to ask how worst was your day when we know it has been crap. And so there is no way, I can control the way you have your thoughts. But being a human, I would like to make you wear a thinking hat for your own sake when you have given it all up....
Did someone tell you, you have a beautiful smile. You are a lovely person from inside out. Why the hell would you not like to make yourself smile? Why the hell would you not like to think that you need to breathe fresh air every morning? You did whatever you were supposed to having stayed in the social boundaries as expected. But today, you are not happy. You are fighting it hard, every moment of your life, to sleep and to wake up yet again. As you said – you are on the edge. Why you strangling yourself for nothing? You have done your so-called duties and responsibilities.One day sit and dare to think if there is a scope beyond these social boundaries going unconventional way? Just once!!!
When people ask you all the time ‘Are You Okay’. We know it is fake. Understanding and Care are words we take for granted the most. Everyone here find it is easy to say – Oh yes, I understand or you know I care but the fact is we all are way too selfish to be aware of what’s happening in others lives. I am not here to give you lecture, to pretend I will help you all the way or try to be your counselor. Just take me another human being going through a shitty phase of life in its own way who can relate that things are not right for you too.
If you do not act soon, do you realize how worse it can get? How about you getting disabled or paralyzed…things won’t be any better . I am your well-wisher and I could not afford to think even for a brink that ever happen to you but this is what my mom tells me when she finds me low. She tells me – damn you have two hands and two feet in perfect condition. You can walk, you can talk, you have a heart and some brains left. Do you really pity yourself? You cannot see that in an alternative situation you become dependent for life for every little thing. So right now you do not realize the value of having freedom to be able to select your thoughts, your daily activities and your state of mind. You do not realize your potential to make it happen because all you can feel is emptiness and finding yourself as a piece of garbage.
So my dear friend, again and yet again, gauge on one thing you can take pride of and work on it, work on it harder and harder. Soon you will find your way and energy back. There will be a ray of hope that one fine day you will smile with open heart and embrace life like never before.
Do believe, these words came from a broken heart and tearful eyes who is trying to walk down the lane with emptiness to find her own reason of happiness.
