Scooby Dooby Doo....Moments...!!!.

"Do things happen in our lives for a Reason.... May be....???"
Out of all the incidents that had occurred in my life, the one with which I got convinced the most with the above phrase, was when you entered into my life unexpectedly and stayed just till the time I needed you. I say, again, till I needed you. I didn’t wish for you to meet me at one stage and leave later but circumstances happened in a way that just when God felt, I could take care of myself, you were gone, as if you meant to be there only till then.

I know that you are gone but today, I am here to talk to you “Scooby”..... my very crisis companion. The reason is, to make you stay with me, to feel your presence everyday when I open this blog and start writing just like every that day when I sat on bed and found you lying next to my bed.

2011 started on a terrible note as I was forced to step in a different phase of life (no, I wasn’t prepared for it, but then who does?). All I knew was that I meant to step out and face it second by second. That moment, after re-gaining myself with huge sighs, I decided to step out to sort out few things which needed immediate attention.

 

On a lazy Sunday afternoon, just when I was settling down at a new place, I found my friends coming home with a little white toy (that’s what I thought of you that moment) in their hands. For a millisecond I did wonder but just then my face spotted your eyes. I simply started playing with you not knowing for how long you would survive with us. I knew all of them had weird schedules but I didn’t ponder over things like who would take care of you, least, forgetting the fact that having you would be a costly affair. For us, it meant to be contribution so may be that didn’t let us think too much on the cost front. All we cared about the smile that you brought on everybody’s face. Everybody was excited about you and making you our family member. It was hardly half an hour with you but that very moment, we named you Scooby (somehow it felt just right).

For the reasons only known to my friends, I was taken as somebody who would surely take care of you, so they didn’t bother to think who would feed you and take you for a walk. I was bound to, given the fact that I always had pets back at my parent’s place and enjoyed their company.

Before we realised, we all got attached with you but I found myself addicted to you. I had to see you as the very first thing in the morning evening or just when I enter the house. I went on to make you comfortable in every mode, had separate beds for you like in the living room and that in my bedroom. Your food was of utmost important to me. Though, we had decided to contribute for your expenses, I found myself going out of the way to buy you delicious ham sticks and pork ears (which your enjoyed the most).

To my surprise, you knew my schedule hour by hour. You knew when to bother and when not to. As an example, you were aware that on weekdays I would take you only for 15 min walk and that too, just nearby the house. The weekends, Oh! you waited for them just like us, for that 1 hour Park walk, you loved for your running, and of course, meeting your beloved girlfriends. Can I tell you, being white how beautiful and royal you looked on that lush green grass? I could not help myself but stare at your beauty throughout. I always felt proud having you and cherished countless compliments I received on your behalf. Also, by seeing other pet lovers I could not stop myself buying all those new adventurous playing items for you that made you excited (just like me when shopping) on finding new things to play or eat. It was followed by you clinging to your own created corner of our house backyard enjoying it big way and that meant I could do my stuff for some time at least.

Notorious Way of Scooby - You so well knew when and what you did wrong and be prepared to hide yourself behind your favourite couch or that backyard corner. Knew of the scolding and punishment you to receive and ready to make your face expressions like that of a toddler.

Now that I have mentioned backyard I must share this big task of cleaning I got on to having a notorious figure like you in the house. It was an on-going process of the cleaning garden as well as the big house. You were Labrador (intentionally didn’t call it breed) and that meant lots and lots of hair fall all the time. Being a clean fanatic, I have to have my house spic and span but living with you made it quite tough. Though it was a never ending task, somehow, it never got on to my nerves. I was happily brooming it all with the thought of having you in a cleaner environment. I wanted you to play in a neater garden.

 It wasn’t that I didn’t go out on the weekends, but mostly, found myself spending time with you willingly. You wanted me to do that, didn’t you? If on any weekend morning I was sleeping more than what you permitted, you used to be all over yelling – “It’s Time so you better wake up. Give me food and take me out for some sunshine. You have enough 5 days for laying excuses”.

Sooner than I realised, you dictated my life. As even on weekdays, I had to be having schedules as per your moods. There were times, when your eyes expressed the emotion for not wanting to stay alone and I had to postpone my To-Do tasks. Your happiness meant lot to me. I remembered those days of you being ill which made my nights sleepless. Loved pampering you then and made you to sleep at peace but wished you could somewhat speak.

One on One Talk – Can’t share enough about this. Scooby, you were my voiceless companion, When I talked, you looked at me so attentively, gently licking my hands; then you rubbed yourself against my clothes….I knew I could buy more clothes, but never a friend like you….your love for me was boundless, sometimes growing beyond my intentions… I could say any foolish thing to you, and you would give me that look that said, `Yeah, you're RIGHT! ” My unwanted sad phase needed somebody to talk to and you were perfect. Not judging me, not questioning me, not having an expectation of giving you an answer but just listening and that too for hours. Can you believe how you understood my tears as well? As and when you saw my tears, you cuddled me in your own way. You did pacify me with an assurance of being there for me unlike anybody else. You did not mind me yelling at you for my own reasons of disappointment.

I knew, one day I would be leaving you and that day appeared sooner than I realised. I wanted to take you with me but it was not possible. I could not afford a big house for you to have a backyard and didn’t want you to suffer with me in a smaller place. You deserved better. There could not have been anyone else to take care of you in my absence. I still remember the last day when your sad eyes were staring at me walking out. Did you know I clicked that moment?

Even when I left the house, I struggled to come back to you every evening to say Hallo, to make sure you have your water and food in place. The worse of it all, I found you in trash condition as you were to sleep outside in the garage in such cold weather. It was hard for me to bear it. I had taken care of you just as my child. I confess, I had cried inside with a heavy heart. So, when I was told you were being given away, I didn’t nudge. I accepted it with silence because I knew you would be better off. That is when it striked my head that unexpectedly, in your company, I had been able to get away with one of the most difficult phase, that too, keeping myself sane.

I am here to apologise and say “Sorry” for I couldn’t be with you when you needed me unlike you my sweetheart. I am sorry to give you that pain of separation and sadness. I felt it and guess you might have felt it too.

Together, we had shared most beautiful laughs and cries, our meals (hard fought habit of yours to drool over my plate), our loneliness, that sunshine in park, some moments of peace and whole 9 months (nothing less than a lifetime) which are never to be forgotten.

Scooby, you were surely the heartbeat at my feet...though I am aware you will not know, but still I would want you to know that I MISS YOU A LOT...A LOT..!!